For some reason, I have found my time off work rather stressful as I have been feeling incredibly disorganised. Are you not supposed to just enjoy your holidays and relax? I am normally rather good at staying on top of things but somehow, I have been feeling completely overwhelmed in the past few weeks and unable to see clearly what I am doing or where I am heading. Rather than getting things crossed off my list, I just keep adding new things to do and end up making myself worry about nothing getting done. Of course, everyday stuff gets done but not the things I want completed before my little girl is born. A lot of it must be the fact I see my due date approaching (seven weeks from now!) and I still have not figured out when I could try to clear a drawer to fit our baby’s vests and sleepsuits. Feeling unprepared terrifies me. Enough of my ramblings… Apart from the turmoil going on in my head, there have been lots of highlights with hubby and the children over the past two weeks and I am hoping the little ones have not realised I was getting so panicky inside.
Enjoying the little things as a family has been brilliant. Jumpy (one year five months) had her first breakfast with her siblings at their small table, and you could tell she was proud to be one of the big ones. That was priceless! She has been climbing everywhere over the past couple of weeks, from the low table to the table in the garden to her big brother’s top bunk. She is quick and she is good at it!
We spent a lot of time outdoors. Just stepping out of the house without a coat on was like a treat in itself. Being able to take cardigans off and feeling the sun on our faces was incredible. We did some weeding, cleaned the patio, planted seeds and the children have loved checking regularly on what they had planted and watering the garden.
Crevette (5 years 9 months) and Beanie (3 years 6 months) really enjoyed looking for specific things: a raspberry cane, an ant, a spider… They absolutely loved finding a snail in the garden, putting it on a leaf to see it joined by a teeny one a bit later. They went on bike rides, spent time in the park, caught up with friends. We had a picnic and walk by a lake, fed the ducks, visited a little zoo near Cambridge. Crevette loved the fruit bats, Beanie preferred the ‘horsey’ (donkey) and Jumpy’s favourite was the same as mine: a very entertaining, crowd-pleasing otter.
Indoors, we had a great afternoon in a soft play area, me chatting to my friend whilst enjoying a cold drink; our children running around. At home, we treasured snuggling up on the sofa all together, really listening to each other and giggling with one another. We also made toilet paper roll Easter bunnies, scented play dough surprise Easter eggs, cress heads, cookies and the children pretended cooking like me using vegetable peelings, a few bowls and spoons.
Five members of our family arrived from France yesterday and that has been the biggest highlight for us. The children simply could not wait to see their Mamie (grandmother) and the rest of the family.
Sara’s Prompt this week is a quote by Mehmet Murat Ildan: “In matters of healing the body or the mind, vacation is a true genius!” Holidays were not actually enough for me. What I needed to feel at peace with my own hormonal brain was some quality family time, and I think I might be feeling a little bit less overwhelmed now.